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capesize2012-06-22 06:38 pm
brightlywound) wrote in capesize2012-06-22 06:38 pm
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It was just a shock. I’ve always known, ever since nursery. But I tried to be good. I married Rex. All through the backgammon and cigars I tried, but it’s not enough...
[Marnie recites the monologue as she splashes at the pool with her right foot. It's been days since she was brought onto this craft. Maybe a good old-fashioned breakdown would suit the actress in her, but the ship is too beautiful and comfortable. Marnie has no idea how to react.]
It’s never enough. God had to punish me.
[With her back against the floor, she shields her eyes from the overhead lights. 'What is this' she's wondered so many times. Alien abduction? Fucking brilliant. Just when her career seemed to be taking off, she was jettisoned off into space.]
So He took my little Sue, my child, my girl. With you I thought I could really and truly be free. [Marnie doubles over so that she can slap the surface of the pool.] But coming back here it’s like an invisible thread drawing me back inch by inch, when all of a sudden you’re a child again. And that voice inside your head that mummy planted all those years ago in the nursery, every night in the nursery fill your head with it.
[The words keep coming as the water goes still. Back in college, she'd been cast in Brideshead Revisited. Marnie hadn't understood any of it, but apparently she'd been good. Good enough to earn an audition... Even now, as she recites to comfort herself, she doesn't understand the words.]
And the voice is telling you, whispering “wicked little Julia, bad little girl living in sin” and here I am living in sin with you.
[She pushes herself forward into the pool. With one kick, she's beneath the water and the rest of the wide world is far away.]
[Marnie recites the monologue as she splashes at the pool with her right foot. It's been days since she was brought onto this craft. Maybe a good old-fashioned breakdown would suit the actress in her, but the ship is too beautiful and comfortable. Marnie has no idea how to react.]
It’s never enough. God had to punish me.
[With her back against the floor, she shields her eyes from the overhead lights. 'What is this' she's wondered so many times. Alien abduction? Fucking brilliant. Just when her career seemed to be taking off, she was jettisoned off into space.]
So He took my little Sue, my child, my girl. With you I thought I could really and truly be free. [Marnie doubles over so that she can slap the surface of the pool.] But coming back here it’s like an invisible thread drawing me back inch by inch, when all of a sudden you’re a child again. And that voice inside your head that mummy planted all those years ago in the nursery, every night in the nursery fill your head with it.
[The words keep coming as the water goes still. Back in college, she'd been cast in Brideshead Revisited. Marnie hadn't understood any of it, but apparently she'd been good. Good enough to earn an audition... Even now, as she recites to comfort herself, she doesn't understand the words.]
And the voice is telling you, whispering “wicked little Julia, bad little girl living in sin” and here I am living in sin with you.
[She pushes herself forward into the pool. With one kick, she's beneath the water and the rest of the wide world is far away.]
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[Rhea shrugs,] Evelyn Waugh. Never read it myself, but I did watch the television serial. About the same thing, right? [Her sister might not think so. Oh dear.
She holds out a hand.] It's Rhea, by the way. Rhea Dancer. Nice to meet you. I'm supposing you've magically ended up here too?